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Spring Semester 2010: * Teaching: Fundamentals of Microbiology - MW 12:00-2:40p Medical Microbiology - TR 2:00-3:15p Colloquium in Cell and Molecular Biology - R 3:30-4:30p Thesis Research - Identification of T Cell Subsets and Immune Response in Colon Cancer Using Immunofluorescence - FOREVER AND EVER Old Journal Entries
Or rather, entries from the old journal, as it were... - An open letter to the College. (August 27, 2006) - Untitled. (July 16, 2006) - Haunted (Part One) (May 29, 2006) - Are we growing up, or just going down? (May 3, 2006) - I had a dream... (March 19, 2006) - ... (March 14, 2006) - Enjoy it while it lasts. (September 12, 2005) - Scene: 3:27 AM. (September 3, 2005) - Untitled. (July 26, 2005) Psst... if you're looking for the academic writings I used to have here, head to my Reading Room. Rented DVDs - The Rage in Placid Lake (2003) - Son of Rambow (2007) - 大紅燈籠高高掛 / Dà Hóng Dēnglóng Gāogāo Guà [Raise the Red Lantern] (1991) - Au revoir, les enfants (1987) - Chalk (2006) - Le Samouraï (1967) - Empire Records (1995) - The Bank Job (2008) - Le Quatre cents coups [The 400 Blows] (1959) - Love and Other Disasters (2006) - Friends and Family (2001) - Sugar [unrated] (2004) - The Curiosity of Chance (2006) - Blade Runner: The Final Cut (1982) - Wristcutters: A Love Story (2006) - Death Note [anime] (2006) - Battle Royale (2000) - Le scaphandre et le papillon [The Diving Bell and the Butterfly] (2007) - Extras, Series 2 (2005) - Extras, Series 1 (2005) - Shelter (2007) - Metropolis (1927) - Cashback (2006) - Harold and Kumar Escape from Guantanamo Bay [Unrated] (2008) - The Catherine Tate Show, Series 2 (2005) - The Catherine Tate Show, Series 1 (2004) - Tokyo monogatari [Tokyo Story] (1953) - Akira (1988) - Habuah [The Bubble] (2006) - Prime Suspect 4, including: - The Lost Child (1995) - Inner Circles (1995) - Scent of Darkness (1995) - Like Minds [USA: Murderous Intent] (2006) - La Strada (1954) - Black Orpheus (1959) - Le Notti di Cabiria [Nights of Cabiria] (1957) - Cleo de cinq a sept [Cleo from 5 to 7] (1962) - Det Sjunde Inseglet [The Seventh Seal] (1957) - Prime Suspect 3 (1994) - Funny Face (1957) - Lalechet Al Ha'mayim [Walk on Water] (2004) - Charade (1963) - Yossi & Jagger (2002) - Mists of Avalon (2001) - Blow Up (1966) The *New* Reading List
Since June 2006... - - - - - - - - - - - - - The Dead Emcee Scrolls by Saul Williams [61.3%] - - Junk Science: An Overdue Indictment of Government, Industry, and Faith Groups that Twist Science for Their Own Gain by Dan Agin, Ph.D. [64.4%] - - - - - - - - 1984 by George Orwell [18.8%] - - - | Issues. Monday, January 15, 2007 @ 9:30 am Sometimes, I fantasize about maiming people so bad that their lives are ruined forever. I never act on those fantasies, but I always let out my anger on an inanimate object nearby. I have caused property damage before, and it isn't pretty. Sometimes I'm afraid I'll accidentally hurt someone I care about, even if they are the people that piss me off in the first place. Sometimes, I wish someone would tell me what's wrong with me. It goes like this: I am fairly tolerant until a certain point when I just snap. Then I start shaking, my fist starts clenching, I begin to breathe heavily, and I get tunnel vision. Then I regain some sort of control over myself and punch a wall or kick a chair or throw objects at a wall. Then I storm off, lock myself in my room, and sleep or otherwise vegetate until I calm down. I've tried counting to 10 before doing anything and that doesn't work because it ends up just being a sort of countdown. And I've tried keeping it in, but I feel... not physically ill afterwards, but I feel abuzz with anger and I can't concentrate on anything afterwards anyway. And I would go to the garage and hit the punching bag a few times, but I've knocked that thing off the ceiling before, which is a bad thing if the family's Volvo is parked not more than a foot and a half away. I want to get help, but I don't have insurance of my own, and I have a feeling my mother doesn't want me getting any pharmacological help bceause she wants to maintain this image of perfect me for the family. But maybe that demand to put on airs is part of the problem. I don't know. Well, maybe writing will help. I do feel a bit calmer now. I might be ready to open the door. 7 Comments. Hmmm... I used to be like this. I can almost guarantee you I know what it is. You know/knew someone who had a TERRIBLE temper and there by has caused you to fear being like them. Am I right? I may not be right, but it still seems that you DO hold back until you snap. Don't hold back. Deal with the issue the moment it comes. Don't try to tolerate it, try to work through it. Been there, done that. Once I tell my story, you're more than welcome to read it. » elessar257 on 2007-01-15 01:11:37 the top was loosely placed on top, to let in said organisms. and the shoe box was to help deter anything bigger. the fire pit is right next to our compost pile, to hide (mask) the scent. » middaymoon on 2007-01-15 01:26:27 Counting to 10... I laugh at that. I've realized that I'm not particularly allowed to be angry when I'm at home, regardless of the fact that people piss me off to no end. :/ *so* I've taken to clenching my jaw. This came back to bite me in the ass a few months ago, when my jaw decided it didn't want to cooperate at all. :/ » ikimashokie on 2007-01-15 01:29:21 Yeah... It's annoying. I find that I tend to do the woman thing and get depressed and angry at the same time. I end up crying, because I'm not really allowed to get pissed and break things... even though I do it anyway. » ikimashokie on 2007-01-15 01:44:04 thank you. i don't know you, but thank you so much. i plan on treading on.. it's just going to be so much harder now.. » ThisCharmingMan on 2007-01-15 01:48:18 You can be one of those people who seems normal for years... then one day just goes on a killing spree. :D Just don't kill me. » randomjunk on 2007-01-15 08:47:48 I get so pissed off at times that I want to punch something or someone, but I usually just stay away from people until I can get far enough away to not hurt them. I end up throwing something once I get home. Or I just rant. Whether to a person or in a blog, I just rant. I find it helps. » LostSoul13 on 2007-01-15 09:20:06
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